At least lgbt people like something i dont i need suport. Visit a.v.e.n. For more aual info?

I was haveing a chat wit a gay friend of mine and we were talking about her uality so i decided to open up how i felt ualy,long story short that i didnt find any particular gender atractive, and she said i might be aual. When i get home i look it up and it turned my world up side down i started crying i felt like i was a women anymore cus real women like men i fell asleep crying thinking maybe i can force myself to feel atracted to boys. I think girls are such beutiful creatures that id love to kiss and cuddle nothing p that it groses me out. I think boys are the creatures im suposed to like id like to be with a nice strong guy but i feel nothin my fantasies end @ the start of .Im 16 had for a year & nvr felt pleased ther was nothin wrong wit the guy.Am i asexual cus i had an abortion is it cus ive been d.i wanted male aproval being the object of desire & i got it,ironicaly ive never been atracted to them I enjoyed having sex cus it made me get closer to feeling satisfyed(high libido)